~!~ nothing is meaningful for me anymore.. ~!~

~ as what u guys like to say past is past.. ~
~ maybe i dunno what r u guys thinking... ~
~ im too childish n foolish.. ~
~ i did everything for u..? at de end?? nothing i get.. ~
~ ZERO.. i just will forget.. ~
~ i wont msg u, call u n msn u anymore.. ~
~ just forget it.. ~
~ it might hurts now, but the time will heals it.. u r nothing special to me anymore.. ~
~ u're right.. i must know how to think edi..! *auuss.. ~
~ everything just past very fast.. ~
~ is like blink ur eye for a second.. ~
~ u can treat me like that.. y i cant? ~
~ everything for me just a BULLSHIT!! ~
~ NOTHING ARE LEFT.. ~
~ i drop a tears for u.. ~
~ this kind of things really kills me..! ~
~ FUCK IT..! ~

~ 7 april 09 ~

~ memorable day.. ~
~ a night with him just past very fast.. ~
~ but de way he treat me now.. is totally suck..! ~
~ i dunno what is de reason u can treat me that kind of way.. ~
~ actually i dun hope that we start everything so fast.. ~
~ cause in the end.. ~
~ shit.. ~
~ a sweet night with u.. ~
~ those hugs n kisses.. ~
~ thanks.. that all.. ~
~ just forget it.. ~

~!~ Yesterday sing k ~!~

~ 3 of us went to toilet to take picture..~

~ left pei n fun at de room thr.. ~
~ c.. so nice.. =) ~

~ finish sing k.. ~
~ we ask de worker help us take pic..~
~ coz de room very huge lor!!! haha.. ~
~ we dance n sing.. WTF..~
~ sq dance de single ladies.. make us laugh like hell! ~

~ this is sq job.. ppl make up she go take picture of us!!! ~
~ haha.. ~

~ little sq.. hehe^^.. ~
~ misunderstanding for a week.. but now edi nothing.. ~
~ love u girl!! ~

~ camwhore!! haha. 5 of us.. ~
~ missing my dear christine..! ~

~ we all keep complaining fun cause she cant stand still..~
~ c de pic.. fun move edi.. one more is she closed her eye!! WTF~


~!~ after sing k, we planned to yam cha.. ~!~
~!~ so we went to Island Cafe.. ~!~
~!~ pei ordered mushroom soup.. ~!~
~!~ when sq want to go to toilet.. she pass by de kitchen.. ~!~
~!~ guess what she saw..?!?!?! ~!~
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~!~ she saw dou de chef put de finger in de soup n taste it..! ~!~
~!~ then put again..! WTF!!! ~!~
~!~ she rush back to our table n tell pei.. ~!~
~!~ once de soup arrived..! ~!~
~!~ pei say cancel order..de waitress like.. huh..? ~!~

~ this is de cafe name!!! ~
~ so dun go to this cafe..! ~!~
~ papa wanted to order food..! ~
~ we stopped him n tell him.. ~
~ so we went off.. never ever go to this cafe anymore!!! ~

~!~ i'm still ME ~!~

~girls... im still PEARLING... ~
~ i never change.. ~

~ just dunno what wrong.. ~
~ fren is to trusted.. ~
~ i know u girl are.. but.. ~

~ i cry, i think... try to release.. but dunno who to release.. ~
~ very very san fu..! ~

~ haiz.. ~
~ y everything comes so suddenly..! ~
~ i dun like this feel! ~

~ fake smile..! ~


~ u all did nothing wrong.. just misunderstanding.. ~
~ dun like that please.. i cant survive.. ~
~ i very san fu... i didnt back step u all!! ~
~ i swear... trust me ba.. ~
~ haiz.. just stuck.. just want to have new frens not to leave u all! ~
~ rmb de our song..? ~

~ u have got to believe.. ~

~ u are my destiny.. ~

~ we're meant to be your friends.. ~

~ that what a friend should be.. ~

~!~ thank to siew qi n miki ~!~

~ thank to this girl.. she always give me support de.. ~
~ whenever im unhappy or happy she always by my side.. ~
~ she is de 1st one to know my happy thing n unhappy thing.. ~
~ so, i really appreciate her.. even argue, later on nothing back.. ~
~ our relationship quite complicated.. ~
~ kai jie..? ji mui..? ~
~ haha.. anyway.. thank alot.. beside thanks i dunno say what.. ~
~ thank for de job girl.. i love u...! ~

~ this girl also very good.. she encourage me what should i do next.. ~
~ she tell me what i will face in future when i choose to work n study.. ~
~ help me to release all de "fan" thing.. ~
~ thanks also.. happy to know u!! ~

~!~ tmr start work ~!~

tmr start work as promoter.. just work for 3 day only..
hehe.. ty sq..
hmm.. still finding job.. haiz..

~!~ yesterday play badminton ~!~

~ ppl play badminton this 2 girl snap picture.. ~
~ some more say exercise wor.. ~
~ haha.. gila.. =p ~

~ haha.. i snap my kor picture.. ~
~ see de way he sit... ~
~omg!!! ~

~ alamak... pretend xi mun..! omg.. ~
~ c.. keep snap picture..! ~

~!~ after play badminton at calvin house there.. ~!~
~!~ we plan to go nite market later.. ~!~
~!~ so went back home n wait for my kor kor fetch me to nite market.. ~!~


~ before going nite market.. ~
~ miki at my house take bath.. hehe^^.. ~
~ after take bath.. we take picture again..~
~ LOL.. here comes de picture...! ~


~!~ TADAAHHH.. ~!~

~ curi aku punya mickey auuss band..! ~
~ haha.. cute neh?!? ~

~ c de so poh.. haha.. ~
~ yer.. want kiss me meh.. ~

~ my messy room.. ~
~ paiseh paiseh.. ~

~!~ after camwhore... kor arrive my house.. ~!~
~!~ we went to nite market have our dinner.. ~!~
~!~ guess what we eat.. ~!~
~!~ hehe.. ASAM LAKSA..! yummy.. ~!~
~!~ forget take picture tim.. =p.. ~!~
~!~ then kor buy something like popiah de.. but wrap with seaweed.. ~!~
~!~ nice le.. yummy...! hehe^^.. ~!~
~!~ then walk walk at nite market.. ~!~
~!~ *bee bee* msg tone.. ~!~
~!~ PEI MSG..! haha.. i guess dou.. "want yam cha?" ~!~
~!~ haha.. then we go yam cha talk about last nite pei de ROB case..! ~!~
~!~ sq was here too.. ~!~
~!~ ops.. forget say something.. when we arrive at asfar.. ~!~
~!~ me n christine saw 5 aunty sitting thr.. ~!~
~!~ then we told pei.. next time we like that aunty age we also like that..! ~!~
~!~ pei like WTF..! haha.. still missing FUN.. ~!~
~!~ soon i upload de picture let u guys c.. ~!~

~ today wake up... whole body muscle pain!!!
~ now walk also pain..
~ really long time didnt play badminton edi..
~ now days want go exercise har sin..
~ haha..

~!~ at last i think i know what i want ~!~

today yam cha with miki, kenny kor n christine..
meet dou pei they all..
chat alot of thing.. i realise i really need to think i should i do next..
i shouldn't sit there do nothing..
but i dunno whether i want study or work..
as what christine say work u will work for whole life edi..
maybe u all say i got family support. but i dun have.. haiz
kenny kor dun encourage me to stop studying..
haiz.. can u guys give me some idea..
i really stuck... i really want to cry out..!
hmm.. if i work this is what i choose for my future..
i want to do my best..
i dun dare to face it.. i really dun dare..
u girls maybe think im rich.. but im not..
last time i can say I AM!!
but now is NO.. cause no one know my family background..
small i need to face thing that i cant accept at all..
u girls wont understand.. now..?
financial problem.. what de fuck..
now de thing is i want to do my best that all..
dun block me what i do.. thank for de advise..
so sry to disappointed u mummy..
but 1 thing.. u never force what i do.. THANKS..
just want to be freedom.. dun want to think so much.. i rather i be de 1st to leave this world..
i will change very soon.. i promise..
no matter how i change.. i will still remember u girls..
my family backgroud is much more complicated then u all..
ya.. i have my sis.. but.. i dun want say..
once i leave here... is forever..
i choose it.. i need to face it.. i dun want to think about love..
just want my mum to live better.. that all..