~!~ Something terrible happen ~!~

~ around 6 something bi grandma call him.. ~
~ told him that his house on FIRE.. so he rush back home.. ~
~ once rush back home.. this i what we saw.. ~

~ 2nd floor kau kau burn.. everything gone.. ~
~ his grandpa talk to me, i just try my best to comfort him.. ~
~ just keep quiet at there... ~

~ no ones was harm.. just bi room n his grandpa room gone.. ~
~ thank god everyone were safe.. ~

~ everyone didnt expect this to happened.. ~
~ bi dun worry i will get u BOXER..! ^^ ~
~ lets go SHOPPING! =p ~

~ Love ~

~ the love within me n u.. ~
~ u give me all the best.. ~
~ u never let me down.. ~
~ whenever im emo n sad, u will make me smile back.. ~
~ whenever i say i want to go to de place, u will just fetch me go..! ~
~ even we are different, but i love u.. ~
~ anything u gave me the best.. ~
~ u buy anything i like.. =X ~
~ even we not being long together, but the feelings are like years.. ~
~ love you ~

~!~ Team Hertz ~!~

~ BYE BYE Team Hertz~

~ most of de KL members left ~
~ hmm.. dun what is going on.. haiz.. ~
~ last time hang out together, crazy together.. ~
~ now no more like last time.. =( ~
~ miss de moment.. *when SHE not APPEAR yet! ~
~ anyway, hope we all still keep in touch! ~

~!~ my birthday ~!~

~!~ firstly thank to all my frens who help me celebrate at poppy..! ~!~
~!~ love u all le!!! ~!~
~!~ ji mui..! seriously, THANKS.. ~!~
~!~ NICK... my best cousin! i love u... ~!~
~!~ EDWIN.. thanks for purposely came to poppy n ur present.. ~!~
~!~ david, astray, kok wai n nicholas.. thank you! ~!~
~!~ KELVIN... haha.. thanks for ur 5 second CHIVAS..!
~!~ mong.. my ex hubby.. no money still want to come... love u n thank you..! ~!~
~!~ beside thank you i dunno what to say.. ~!~
~!~ this year birthday abit peace.. but i still enjoy it! ~!~
~!~ my wish is......... ~!~
~!~ all my fren stay healthy.. ~!~
~!~ tmr i will update my blog with picture n my present from all my beloved..! ~!~

~ happy birthday to myself..! ~

~!~ Thanks ~!~

~ my ji mui thanks alot.. ~
~ u all de one who comfort me n advise me ~
~ sry to sq that i didnt hear ur advice.. i love u sq. ~

~ dear.. thanks.. u de one who always support me.. ~
~ just love u.. ~

~ de sister who always say de right thing.. but i dun care.. ~
~ she say fed up but she de one who most care.. ~
~ thanks.. ~

~ the one who always accompany me.. ~
~ fetch me everywhere.. so call my ex hubby.. ~
~ LOL.. ~

~ mr marshall. . ~
~ i dunno say what.. even not know for very long.. ~
~ but....... THANKS.. ~

~ my pet bro.. baby chandran.. ~
~ always cares me.. n msg with me when i emo.. ~
~ love u! ~

~ de pet bro which MOST SAYANG ME!! ~
~ uncle chandran.. =p.. ~
~ de want who comfort me.. n everything he know about me n HIM.. ~

~ justin.. de gila want.. =p.. ~
~ thank you.. when im down u cheer me up.. ~

~ missing another pet bro.. that is SHINJI..! ~
~ i dun have ur pic.. sry.. ~
~ love u too.. n thanks for sharing all de thing.. ~


~!~ even i didnt know u all for very long but de feel like i know u all since very very long.. ~!~

~!~ we crazy together, laugh together, do everything together..~!~
~!~ team hertz really brings me alotof happiness.. thanks..! ~!~
~!~ love u all too.. ~!~

~!~ JI MUI ~!~
~!~ i will never forget u all.. ~!~
~!~ i will spend more times with u all.. ~!~
~!~ remember our song..? SHINNING FRIENDS ~!~
~!~ u all r de best.. ~!~

~!~ everything over.. ~!~

~everything has over.. ~
~ we never like last time.. ~
~ thanks for everything.. i wont forget de moment that we spend together.. ~
~ there is too much of lies from u.. ~
~ no more tears dropping.. ~
~ even both of us is not being long together but just have a happy moment.. ~
~ just dun lie to HER.. that all.. ~
~ everything u to is no meaningful to me.. ~
~ my feeling toward u are just fren.. ~

~!~ nothing is meaningful for me anymore.. ~!~

~ as what u guys like to say past is past.. ~
~ maybe i dunno what r u guys thinking... ~
~ im too childish n foolish.. ~
~ i did everything for u..? at de end?? nothing i get.. ~
~ ZERO.. i just will forget.. ~
~ i wont msg u, call u n msn u anymore.. ~
~ just forget it.. ~
~ it might hurts now, but the time will heals it.. u r nothing special to me anymore.. ~
~ u're right.. i must know how to think edi..! *auuss.. ~
~ everything just past very fast.. ~
~ is like blink ur eye for a second.. ~
~ u can treat me like that.. y i cant? ~
~ everything for me just a BULLSHIT!! ~
~ NOTHING ARE LEFT.. ~
~ i drop a tears for u.. ~
~ this kind of things really kills me..! ~
~ FUCK IT..! ~

~ 7 april 09 ~

~ memorable day.. ~
~ a night with him just past very fast.. ~
~ but de way he treat me now.. is totally suck..! ~
~ i dunno what is de reason u can treat me that kind of way.. ~
~ actually i dun hope that we start everything so fast.. ~
~ cause in the end.. ~
~ shit.. ~
~ a sweet night with u.. ~
~ those hugs n kisses.. ~
~ thanks.. that all.. ~
~ just forget it.. ~

~!~ Yesterday sing k ~!~

~ 3 of us went to toilet to take picture..~

~ left pei n fun at de room thr.. ~
~ c.. so nice.. =) ~

~ finish sing k.. ~
~ we ask de worker help us take pic..~
~ coz de room very huge lor!!! haha.. ~
~ we dance n sing.. WTF..~
~ sq dance de single ladies.. make us laugh like hell! ~

~ this is sq job.. ppl make up she go take picture of us!!! ~
~ haha.. ~

~ little sq.. hehe^^.. ~
~ misunderstanding for a week.. but now edi nothing.. ~
~ love u girl!! ~

~ camwhore!! haha. 5 of us.. ~
~ missing my dear christine..! ~

~ we all keep complaining fun cause she cant stand still..~
~ c de pic.. fun move edi.. one more is she closed her eye!! WTF~


~!~ after sing k, we planned to yam cha.. ~!~
~!~ so we went to Island Cafe.. ~!~
~!~ pei ordered mushroom soup.. ~!~
~!~ when sq want to go to toilet.. she pass by de kitchen.. ~!~
~!~ guess what she saw..?!?!?! ~!~
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~!~ she saw dou de chef put de finger in de soup n taste it..! ~!~
~!~ then put again..! WTF!!! ~!~
~!~ she rush back to our table n tell pei.. ~!~
~!~ once de soup arrived..! ~!~
~!~ pei say cancel order..de waitress like.. huh..? ~!~

~ this is de cafe name!!! ~
~ so dun go to this cafe..! ~!~
~ papa wanted to order food..! ~
~ we stopped him n tell him.. ~
~ so we went off.. never ever go to this cafe anymore!!! ~

~!~ i'm still ME ~!~

~girls... im still PEARLING... ~
~ i never change.. ~

~ just dunno what wrong.. ~
~ fren is to trusted.. ~
~ i know u girl are.. but.. ~

~ i cry, i think... try to release.. but dunno who to release.. ~
~ very very san fu..! ~

~ haiz.. ~
~ y everything comes so suddenly..! ~
~ i dun like this feel! ~

~ fake smile..! ~


~ u all did nothing wrong.. just misunderstanding.. ~
~ dun like that please.. i cant survive.. ~
~ i very san fu... i didnt back step u all!! ~
~ i swear... trust me ba.. ~
~ haiz.. just stuck.. just want to have new frens not to leave u all! ~
~ rmb de our song..? ~

~ u have got to believe.. ~

~ u are my destiny.. ~

~ we're meant to be your friends.. ~

~ that what a friend should be.. ~

~!~ thank to siew qi n miki ~!~

~ thank to this girl.. she always give me support de.. ~
~ whenever im unhappy or happy she always by my side.. ~
~ she is de 1st one to know my happy thing n unhappy thing.. ~
~ so, i really appreciate her.. even argue, later on nothing back.. ~
~ our relationship quite complicated.. ~
~ kai jie..? ji mui..? ~
~ haha.. anyway.. thank alot.. beside thanks i dunno say what.. ~
~ thank for de job girl.. i love u...! ~

~ this girl also very good.. she encourage me what should i do next.. ~
~ she tell me what i will face in future when i choose to work n study.. ~
~ help me to release all de "fan" thing.. ~
~ thanks also.. happy to know u!! ~

~!~ tmr start work ~!~

tmr start work as promoter.. just work for 3 day only..
hehe.. ty sq..
hmm.. still finding job.. haiz..

~!~ yesterday play badminton ~!~

~ ppl play badminton this 2 girl snap picture.. ~
~ some more say exercise wor.. ~
~ haha.. gila.. =p ~

~ haha.. i snap my kor picture.. ~
~ see de way he sit... ~
~omg!!! ~

~ alamak... pretend xi mun..! omg.. ~
~ c.. keep snap picture..! ~

~!~ after play badminton at calvin house there.. ~!~
~!~ we plan to go nite market later.. ~!~
~!~ so went back home n wait for my kor kor fetch me to nite market.. ~!~


~ before going nite market.. ~
~ miki at my house take bath.. hehe^^.. ~
~ after take bath.. we take picture again..~
~ LOL.. here comes de picture...! ~


~!~ TADAAHHH.. ~!~

~ curi aku punya mickey auuss band..! ~
~ haha.. cute neh?!? ~

~ c de so poh.. haha.. ~
~ yer.. want kiss me meh.. ~

~ my messy room.. ~
~ paiseh paiseh.. ~

~!~ after camwhore... kor arrive my house.. ~!~
~!~ we went to nite market have our dinner.. ~!~
~!~ guess what we eat.. ~!~
~!~ hehe.. ASAM LAKSA..! yummy.. ~!~
~!~ forget take picture tim.. =p.. ~!~
~!~ then kor buy something like popiah de.. but wrap with seaweed.. ~!~
~!~ nice le.. yummy...! hehe^^.. ~!~
~!~ then walk walk at nite market.. ~!~
~!~ *bee bee* msg tone.. ~!~
~!~ PEI MSG..! haha.. i guess dou.. "want yam cha?" ~!~
~!~ haha.. then we go yam cha talk about last nite pei de ROB case..! ~!~
~!~ sq was here too.. ~!~
~!~ ops.. forget say something.. when we arrive at asfar.. ~!~
~!~ me n christine saw 5 aunty sitting thr.. ~!~
~!~ then we told pei.. next time we like that aunty age we also like that..! ~!~
~!~ pei like WTF..! haha.. still missing FUN.. ~!~
~!~ soon i upload de picture let u guys c.. ~!~

~ today wake up... whole body muscle pain!!!
~ now walk also pain..
~ really long time didnt play badminton edi..
~ now days want go exercise har sin..
~ haha..

~!~ at last i think i know what i want ~!~

today yam cha with miki, kenny kor n christine..
meet dou pei they all..
chat alot of thing.. i realise i really need to think i should i do next..
i shouldn't sit there do nothing..
but i dunno whether i want study or work..
as what christine say work u will work for whole life edi..
maybe u all say i got family support. but i dun have.. haiz
kenny kor dun encourage me to stop studying..
haiz.. can u guys give me some idea..
i really stuck... i really want to cry out..!
hmm.. if i work this is what i choose for my future..
i want to do my best..
i dun dare to face it.. i really dun dare..
u girls maybe think im rich.. but im not..
last time i can say I AM!!
but now is NO.. cause no one know my family background..
small i need to face thing that i cant accept at all..
u girls wont understand.. now..?
financial problem.. what de fuck..
now de thing is i want to do my best that all..
dun block me what i do.. thank for de advise..
so sry to disappointed u mummy..
but 1 thing.. u never force what i do.. THANKS..
just want to be freedom.. dun want to think so much.. i rather i be de 1st to leave this world..
i will change very soon.. i promise..
no matter how i change.. i will still remember u girls..
my family backgroud is much more complicated then u all..
ya.. i have my sis.. but.. i dun want say..
once i leave here... is forever..
i choose it.. i need to face it.. i dun want to think about love..
just want my mum to live better.. that all..

~!~ i know the answer.. ~!~

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~!~ i know what is de answer.. ~!~
~!~ u dun need to tell.. ~!~
~!~ u never ever want me to be urs.. ~!~
~!~ so.. is my time to go.. ~!~
~!~ maybe i had think too much.. i should not pull u too tie.. ~!~
~!~ the path is too long for me to walk alone.. ~!~
~!~ i will never look back ever.. ~!~
~!~ u dumb me alone.. u wont know how its feel ~!~
~!~ i never know that u are so cruel.. ~!~
~!~ at last, i know.. ~!~
~!~ this is ur choice n decision.. ~!~
~!~ u choose it... i never.. ~!~
~!~ i should let u go now.. ~!~
~!~ u go by ur way.. i will walk my own path.. ~!~
~!~ maybe is hard to walk alone... without u i'ma still ok with it.. ~!~
~!~ there r getting darker n darker.. no more sunshine.. ~!~
~!~ no more whispering sound.. its just SILENT.. ~!~
~!~ i cant hear ur heartbeat... it too far away.. ~!~
~!~ no more warmness in bed.. is COOL.. ~!~
~!~ there is no shutters for me.. ~!~
~!~ u go for ur thing........ ~!~
~!~ i shall leave now.. maybe 1 day u will find me back.. ~!~
~!~ u go through de long path that i walk.. u will found me.. ~!~
~!~ i wont wait u for long.. i'll just wait u for a moment.. ~!~
~!~ too long... i will go to another place that u couldn't find me.. ~!~
~!~ and i will just forget u in my mind... ~!~
~!~ just like wind blow away de cloud... ~!~

~!~ I LOVE U ~!~

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~ at miki house.. ~

~ the 1st pic we take.. haha.. stupid rite..? ~

~ i was on de phone with christine.. haha.. that miki snap a pic.. =X ~

~ she say she tie up her hair will be nicer.. so.. i take pic of myself.. hehe^^ ~

~ try to fit in into a small small mirror... ~
~hehe... c.. both of us.. so cute.. ~

~ another me.. nice? comment..! i miss u ben ben niu niu.. ~

~ behind got so poh.. haha.. c.. !~

~ omg.. ghost.. haha.. ~
~ acting stupid face!!!! ~

~ shhhhh... ~

~ haha.. still on de phone.. =p.. ~

~ haha... this want really so poh!! ~

~ aiyer.. so sweet neh.. ~

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~ to someone... if i still cant get de answer.. ~
~ i think i know what is de answer from u.. ~
~ thank for everything my dear.. ~
~ love u... ~
~ ben dan ai ni ~

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~!~ love ~!~

~ de kisses.. ~

~ de hug... ~

~ if u really loves me.. then u must tell it.. ~

~ de loneliness without u beside me.. ~

~ now.. i'm lonely.. ~

~ what are u thinking.. ~
~ i really dunno.. ~
~ u worry that u can't give me what i want.. ~
~ i want nothing.. ~
~ just want u to treat me better.. that all i want.. ~
~ no reply from u.. ~
~ i really dunno what u want.. ~
~ maybe need to give u sometimes.. ~
~ dun too long my dear.. ~

~!~ LOVING YOU ~!~

Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful
Makin' love with you is all i wanna do
Lovin' you is more than just a dream come true
And everything that i do is out of lovin' you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old

And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin' you has made my life so beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin' you

Lovin' you i see your soul come shinin' through
And every time that we oooooh
I'm more in love with you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do